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No matter how many times I say it out loud, or remind myself it still doesn’t seem right. I don’t mean that it feels wrong or that something isn’t right but it almost doesn’t seem real.
We are pregnant; Alison and I are having a baby.
First Impression: Terrified.
I am not worried about having a baby, I am petrified that I am going to have a baby. Even in these first few days I have been reading information, and we have watched some DVD’s. These have all been amazing sources of information but I doubt if anything will ever be enough. Will I be a good parent? What will having a baby be like? How will we both cope with pregnancy? How will we both cope with a baby?! Then there is all of the stuff that I shouldn’t even be worrying about yet, like schools, our child’s friends, the teenage years, what sport they’ll play, what they are going to want to do with their lives? My head spins with the many thousands of issues about this that aren’t even relevant for many years.
There have however been some gems of information that have settled me and kept me sane. The resounding message that has been appearing throughout a lot of these sources is that no one is ever ready to have a baby. If people waited until they were financially ready then no one would have a baby. If couples waited until they were 100% prepared in every sense of the word then no one would have a baby. A lot of the time it just happens and before you know it you are going to become a parent.
Being a Mum and Dad,
I know that Alison and I will be amazing parents. We are both smart and sensible, we both have jobs and financial stability, we have a family friendly house and car, and we will make this work. I’ll admit the fact that I have teared up at the thought of having a baby. Not that I was scared or worried, but that someday in around 8 months I am going to be someone’s father. When they grow up I will be the person who loves them and protects them. When they start playing sport I will be the one at every game. When they are in school I will be the one there embarrassing them. And when they spread their wings into the big wide world I will be the person who is so proud of the individual they have become. But I will never lose the feeling I have in my heart every time they call me Daddy.