In the last (amost) three weeks, a fair bit has happened. I spiralled into morning sickness around the same gestation as I did with Jack and had a pretty shocking week that followed. However, it has greatly improved over the following weeks and now apart from some basic nausea and maybe the occasional chuck, I am doing OK. Such a massive difference to my experience with Jack, and while I can not say I am not grateful, it also makes me the teeniest bit wary, as it is not what I am used to experiencing. Anybody who knows me knows that I am not great with change or variation. I keep worrying that this baby is not doing as well as Jack did because I am not sicker. However, logically I can kick that in the butt and refer not only to my HCG levels that are on par with what Jack's were... but we also had our first scan on the 22nd and got to see our little walnut chilling out in there. With a beautiful little heart beat of 165bpm and measuring exactly on 7w2d as expected, little walnut is doing good.
So today I am 7w5d and some days time seems to go so slow and other days I realise we have known now for over a month and that time has gone so quickly. I will feel a lot more settled when we hit that 12-14 week mark, I think.
I had such a strong belief with Jack that he was going to be a boy right from the start. With this one, I am not sure if my 'intuition' is being tainted by subconscious preference or not... but I feel like this may be a girl. Now, if I was being upfront, I would admit that ultimately I would like another boy. Purely because I feel that would be the most beneficial for Jack and that he would love a brother. However, this pregnancy has felt so different to last time both emotionally and physically. I just can't shake the feeling walnut may just be a girl. That is very exciting as well, as it would be an amazing experience to have a daughter.